I needed time for myself today. Since moving to Berlin, I’ve been running around nonstop. I love every minute of it so far, but at some point finding a routine, catching-up with friends, working (a lot!) and dating can fill day after day and there’s no real time to “live” in between any more.

I was walking my dog this gorgeous summer evening and felt that I just wanted to sit down with a nice meal and a glass of Apérol Spritz. My dog is the perfect partner in crime and we found a cute Italian restaurant. I have full-on conversations with my dog and enjoyed the entire evening a lot. I was happy. Truly, deeply, happy. And grateful. To be in Berlin. With Valentina. With the flexibility to work remotely. To have the most incredible co-founder who is running the show at the moment. For Berlin. For Summer. For the dates I had so far and this very special time in my life. I must have smiled without evening noticing.

And then the evening became even better. A musician was sitting a few tables next to us and started playing the most beautiful songs. The Beatles type of music. It was the perfect backdrop to this evening. Everyone sang along and was cheering in between songs. It was one of these moments when you truly feel connected to each other.

When we left I passed by his table to thank him for the wonderful evening. The friend sitting at his table said something that stuck with me. He told me that his musician friend usually doesn’t put on a show like that, but that he loved the positive energy he could feel from my table. The two were an older, gay couple. There was no flirting involved, they seem to mean what they said. It touched me more than they could have imagined. I sat down on their table for a bit and we ended the evening with a round of Italian liquor. So maybe the date wasn’t all by myself after all.

The older I get, the more I believe in energy. If you love what you are doing or where you are in life, people can feel it and will feed off your energy, which creates even more positive momentum! I know it’s easier said than done. My take-away for this evening is trying to recognize these moments of “Flow” and be grateful for them. And over time maybe reconize patterns behind them. On that note, I can’t finish my post without referring to the quote that inspired one of my tattoos. It’s along the exact same lines:

“People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.”

Jospeh Campbell